My old, comfortable anxiety dream, the one almost everyone has:
It is finals week, I have final exams, and I have never been to class. This gets changed up a little, depending upon how neurotic I am. It can include things like Having Never Even Been To Campus, Can't Find My Car Because It Has Been Stolen And Also I Have No Shoes. Oddly, this dream has given way to a new dream, the dream in which I have to get a job, or go to some lame job, and it is conflicting with my own schedule. The job is invariably some lame job or a facsimile of some lame job I have done in the past. I always wake up wondering if I have to go to this lame job and then the relief washes over me and I think to myself, duh, Zetta, you do not have to go work at a grocery store or a pizza kitchen and you haven't had to for 5 years now so will you please just get the fuck over it?
The thing is, I am a terrible employee. I hate working in groups, I disdain management, I am snotty to mucky-mucks, and I am a jerk at meetings. No one would even hire me. I am, however, punctual to a fault and will work hard if need be. I work hard at what I do now, but I don't have the meetings, the management, or the mucky-mucks. And thank god I am not sitting across the table from my manager who wishes he never hired me, trying to figure out a way to tell me to be nicer to people without pissing me off.
Gah. Maybe my friend the Sparkly Warrior Princess will get me a job where she works if ever it should come to that!
2 comments:
Is that finals week dream really that common? I get it all the time. I have the one where I haven't been to class all semester.
Today in the middle of the afternoon while I was getting my hair cut I had a hole in a my memory. For one full minute I couldn't remember what day it was (Monday or Tuesday)and if I had yesterday off or if I had to work tomorrow. Is this a waking anxiety dream?
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